Excerpts of prayers by Archbishop Demetrios from his book “Speaking to God.”
My God, conversation with You is something simple. But at the same time it is also difficult. A dialogue with You, I feel, constitutes the highest art, the most profound science, and the most authentic life. Oh, how I feel the pressure of being without any training, education, or effort in this direction! God, I feel like an invalid, because up to now no one has taught me the art and method of conversing with You.
I spent many years for my education. I can make myself understood just fine to people who were born in many other places, from places where snow doesn’t melt to places where the sun scorches the ground. I speak freely and comfortably with them. You gave me the ability to have long and interesting conversations with them and with others. But when it comes time to talk to You, who are my Father who made me, then a terrible weakness comes over me. An odd difficulty engulfs my words. Dialogue with You stops and dies before it begins.
You know, All Wise God, my desire to have a dialogue with You. The wish to converse with You is torturing me. I long to be able to talk to You and for You to answer me. For You to whisper inside me and for me to listen happily and ecstatically. Lord, I feel a deep pain when I think about how I can go on for hours with my friends and even strangers on serious or empty, meaningless topics while with You I cannot accomplish talking to You even a few minutes, or so often for a second. I start my day or end it without this supernatural dialogue with You. Don’t leave me, my Savior, in this state any more. Make me a participant in Your living Word. Build up in my contrite spirit and in Your pure and infinite Spirit a bridge of dialogue which my very existence demands. Become the other Conversant whom I have looked for all these years.